On this day one year ago, a package arrived in the mail. I had ordered it several days beforehand, after waking up at 2am with yet another pregnancy dream and my fourth day in a row of feeling nauseated. In the package sat three pregnancy tests from Amazon.. If you live in a small town where everyone talks, you know the benefit of ordering these types of things online. ;)
I had spent the last several days convincing myself I was being silly, so I didn’t even take the test immediately. I got dressed, drove into town, and ran some errands. Then I came home and popped a buffalo chicken sandwich into the microwave and decided to go take the test while it was cooking. I left the test sitting on the bathroom counter while it processed and went to eat my sandwich. As I was walking down the hall to go check out the result, I realized something: I was telling myself not to be disappointed if it was negative. Somehow, I had already fallen in love with the idea of having a baby, even though we had just discussed not wanting kids for a little while. I really really wanted that test to be positive.
And there it was.
Thus began the biggest whirlwind of a year I’ve ever experienced, and here we are one year later with the most amazing little girl.
Happy one year of loving your very existence, Cordelia Sue.