I feel like I’m creeping back to this blog a different person, so I’m not 100% sure where I should start. These eight months…oh my goodness, I could have never been prepared. I have been buried in a pit of depression and then happier than I’ve been in years. I have been excited about changes and then terrified of the unexpected. I have felt hopeful and then I have felt let down. And I can count on one hand the moments I felt complete peace.
It has been.. A whirlwind.
Monday morning I woke up in our (still unpacked) bedroom, fed the dogs, made breakfast, and then sat down at our kitchen table and cried. A good cry. (Granted, some/most of that may have been hormone induced.) Things are starting to feel somewhat normal around here and I am so grateful for it I could burst at the seams. Nothing has been normal this year. As someone who cowers at the thought of change, I am so fucking proud of myself. I will get through this year and look back and know I never quit and I never lost control. I made tough decisions and I saw them through. I learned the value of family. I let go of a lot of things I hated about myself and I finally let myself grow.
We are approximately 8 weeks (or less) away from meeting our Cordelia and while we are still struggling to get everything in order, I’m finally starting to feel a little more ready.
I miss blogging. I really do. It’s become such a big part of who I am, even if that sounds super lame. But I’m thankful for the break. I don’t see myself setting a blog schedule again any time soon, but I know I want to take photos and share more. So I’m going to make an honest effort to try to do so.
stunning photo and best luck with the changes ahead!
Glad to see you back – even if only for a moment.
I have missed you, but thankful you are toughing it out & moving forward each moment.
Stay strong!
You got this Amanda!
It’s so cool that you are sharing the highs and lows, and I can’t wait to see the next posts, with all the new changes that will happen once Cordelia’s here :3
xoxo
I don’t know exactly what you’re talking about but I can sympathize that a pregnancy whirlwind of emotions (and hormones ha). Beautiful picture.
Just stumbled upon your blog whilst looking for some cool photography blogs to follow. Got to say I love your blog, all the best with the pregnancy, you’ve got my follow :)