First of all, thanks for all the encouragement yesterday. I said it then and I’ll say it again…I’m incredibly thankful for the support I’ve received from you guys. I’m definitely currently going through a low point and it’s been nice to have a handful of people not think I’m completely crazy.
I think the whole dog fight incident was the icing on the cake. My anxiety has been rough for awhile but now I’ve just lost it. I have cried more in the last three days than I have in years. (I’m not a crier!) My brain has been in a constant loop of “What if __*insert horrific event*__ happens??”
I’m visiting the doctor this morning to discuss some options to temporarily calm me down. Currently all I can do is cry and pace around my house and keep my dogs locked in separate rooms because I’m constantly paranoid of another fight. This isn’t a good way for any of us to live our lives and I’m ready for things to get back to semi-normal. (Because our household is never “normal”.) I know the dogs sense how stressed I am and I’m not helping them any more than I’m helping myself.
I’ve been pretty good about blogging every day for the last six months or so, but I’m going to take a break for a couple of days to get other things sorted out. Just wanted to let you guys know I might go MIA for a bit and I’m thankful for the sweet words thus far. On the bright side, I’ll have a fun senior shoot and a gorgeous wedding to share when I get back!
P.S. Also, on a much much lighter note, it’s Heather’s birthday! She’s officially old now, or something..